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Is it normal to fantasize your boyfriend with someone else?

"Argument? Why? Are you arguing with him or is he arguing with you?" my friend asked.

"It's not a quarrel, it's just that he is angry with me." I thought about it.

"Why? Did you offend him?"

"I don't know either. I asked him if he cheated on him and had sex with other girls, could he not use the position I used before, and he got angry."

"...cool, my dear"

"Is it weird? I feel a little awkward."

My current boyfriend and I have been together for more than a year, and our relationship is in a state of occasional quarrel but long-term stability. Because we are both introverted and romantic types, he doesn't like singing and drinking, and I don't like clubbing and dancing. After finishing our respective jobs, the rest of our energy is spent on developing sex positions.

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We are very familiar with each other's bodies, he knows what poses I like to use, and I understand his favorite scenario settings, but there is only one fetish of mine, which he still hasn't gotten, and that is my NTR attribute.

"Huh? What is the NTR attribute?" 

"It's just that I like to imagine him being slept with by other people, and what happens. But he doesn't like it, and gets very angry."

"Imagine your boyfriend cheating?? Some women want to be vigilant 24 hours a day, staring at their boyfriends to prevent them from cheating with others. You directly expect your boyfriend to cheat? No matter who he is, he will be angry. Stop it. , why expect your boyfriend to be unfaithful in love."

"Hahahaha"

But that being said, I can't help but imagine how he lost his way with other people after drinking at a party with friends. What poses would they take, how would I find out about this, and how disappointed like a movie plot:

"What are you doing! How can you do this?!...Trick me?! You know I like watching from the side!"

You must keep your dignity! 

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This imagery doesn't make me feel down or sad, on the contrary, I enjoy it. Watching beautiful things go to destruction from the perspective of God, producing masochistic pleasure in intense pain, like a "deformed love", but this is indeed the core of NTR's attributes.

Therefore, I often ask him questions such as "Will you cheat?" Every time I see a story about a man cheating, I will forward the story to him and ask him if he will do the same.

At first he thought it was a "boyfriend test" kind of question, or that he didn't give me enough sense of security, which made me too sensitive, so he just made a serious guarantee that he would definitely not do this.

But there are too many urban dramas with cheating plots. As he finds out more and more, I ask him if he will cheat, or I simply assume that when he has cheated, it is a very excited and playful attitude, and his emotions are also became angry and puzzled.

Just like this time. I dreamed that he was having sex with other girls, but this time it was a bit more bad, I also cheated in the dream. After waking up, I shared it with him because I thought the plot was funny, and then I was scolded. 

Although the sexual fetish is only one's own, but the feelings belong to two people. I took the initiative to apologize to him, saying that it was just a dream and not something I could control. He retorted that when I was awake, I always told things related to derailment.

"It's not like all men are like this, I'm just joking around." 

"Why are men like this, you say a real example"

"My Father" 

"What?"

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My dad cheated on someone when I was very young. I know it, my sister knows it, and my mom knows it even more. But their marriage continued, and no one took the initiative to expose the matter. But my mother's temper was getting worse and worse. She only ridiculed and denied my dad a lot of the time, and she never even had patience with me and my sister. She seldom cares about how my sister and I are doing, never asks us how our studies are, and has never participated in parent-teacher meetings. She only cares about the children "just live".

She always scolded us for not doing anything, "just like your useless dad". In her anger, my sister and I almost never felt the harmony and warmth of the family, only the father who looked good-natured, and the mother who was always making trouble.

"Then your NTR attribute can be said to be an acquired self-protection mechanism. Use constant jokes to defuse the damage caused to you when it does happen." He concluded after listening to me.

"It's basically mistrust. But we've been together for so long, can you respect me even if you don't trust me baby? I don't like the jokes you cheat on me. I don't find it funny, I get mad. " 

He looked at me pitifully, his low tone full of grievances. But I also realized that whether this is a sexual fetish or a protective mechanism, it must exist under the premise that it will not hurt others.

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When we choose to start an intimate relationship with someone, respecting her/him should be the first principle before we do anything. Just like a joke, a joke that others don't find funny isn't a joke, it's disrespectful. I imagined myself being deceived, and no matter what pleasure it brings to me, if my partner doesn't feel comfortable with it, it's not appropriate to bring it up again.

Sexual fetishes should be something to enjoy more exciting sex, rather than having to satisfy oneself, and the feelings of lovers also need to be gradually harmonious in mutual respect.

 

Story by Feinblatt
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